The next decade....what's in store?

Thin life between life and death

...and I think I almost crossed it the other night. Can't recall which night, but I was ready to go to the hospital.

Went into bed at about 1am. I had left the dog out (we normally lock them up) and she was barking all night. (I can't sleep in noise). So I there tossing and turning. From lying on my back to lying on my side. Then something in my chest (the section where the heart is) felt like it went 'pop'. Next came a burning sensation in my left arm.

So I sat up, then felt heart started to beat fastser. I stood up, and swore that things were just not normal.

The thoughts that raced through my mind were "lord, look how I going to dead tonight and cricket is this weekend! Wonder what they going to say at my funeral?"

I dragged on proper clothes (one cannot go to the hospital in one's night dress) and went into my parents room, woke up my mother and told her I was feeling ill. Pops woke up too. By this time my body was shaking. It felt like I was having an earthquake inside my body.

Teeth started chattering. Parents told me to lie down. It felt worse. They went for two 81mg aspirins and some milk, then called the doctor (mum's sister-in-law and my godmother). She asked some questions, one of which was was there any headache which was not. She suggested it could have been a panic attack.

Was I thinking about anything? Nope. I free as a bird, enjoying my life immensely. I could have some more money, but nobody pitching me out on the road, so that is not a major concern.

I was also instructed to take some Frisium to calm me down (she wanted Valium but we had none). Took that, the dog still barked, so I didn't sleep.

The next day, apart from a headache from lack of sleep, I was fine. The next night I slept like a log. The next night, same thing.

So beats me. But I tell you, I felt that was my last nigth on Earth. I was frightened.

Posted by yamfoot at May 5, 2005 11:24 PM